The Greedy Monsters are at it yet again 욕심 괴물은 다시 한번 그것을이다 yogsim goemul eun dasi hanbeon geugeos-eul ida by:J.A.Burror

It took me some time to gather my thoughts.
그것은 내 생각을 수집하는 데 좀 시간이 걸렸습니다.
geugeos-eun nae saeng-gag-eul sujibhaneun de jom sigan-i geollyeossseubnida
I had a scare and that left me out of it.

나는 겁이 있었다 그것은 그것의 저를 떠났습니다.

naneun geob i iss-eossda geugeos-eun geugeos-ui jeoleul tteonassseubnida.

Thinking wise, I couldn't tell really what was happening, it was a mess upstairs.
지혜로운 생각, 정말 무슨 일이 일어 났는지, 그것이 엉망이 위층했다 말할 수 없습니다.

jihyeloun saeng-gag , jeongmal museun il-i il-eo nassneunji , geugeos-i eongmang i wicheung haessda malhal su eobs-seubnida .

All my thoughts and stress that was going around me and then I in the midst of it read this news.
내 모든 생각과 내 주위가는 스트레스와 그 다음 나는 그것의 중간에이 뉴스를 읽을.

nae modeun saeng-gaggwa nae juwi ganeun seuteuleseuwa geu da-eum naneun geugeos-ui jung-gan-e i nyuseuleul ilg-eul .

When at first I laughed, I ready think this is funny in away.
처음에 나는 웃었다 때, 나는이 거리에서 재미라고 생각합니다 준비.

cheoeum-e naneun us-eossda ttae, naneun i geoli eseo jaemi lago saeng-gaghabnida junbi .

Because it's so stupid in the exact meaning of that word. 

그것은 그 단어의 정확한 의미에 너무 바보 때문에.

geugeos-eun geu dan-eo ui jeonghwaghan uimi e neomu babo ttaemun-e .

Reporters that don't report, but lie so they don't have to put in the work to do their job title. 
보고하지 않는 기자,하지만 거짓말은 자신의 직책을 수행 할 작업에 넣어 필요가 없습니다.

bogohaji anhneun gija,hajiman geojismal-eun jasin-ui jigchaeg-eul suhaeng hal jag-eob-e neoh-eo pil-yoga eobs-seubnida.

Lawyers that haven't the right things to say, but smile at the worst times.
말을하지 않을 권리 물건을 가지고 있지만, 최악의 시간에 미소 변호사.

mal-eul haji anh-eul gwonli mulgeon-eul gajigo issjiman, choeag-ui sigan-e miso byeonhosa .

Only making their own Gold Digger of a client that much more seen as such.
만 훨씬 더 같은 본 클라이언트의 자신의 골드 파는 만들기.

man hwolssin deo gat-eun bon keullaieonteu ui jasin-ui goldeu paneun mandeulgi.

The Greedy Monsters are at it yet again. 
욕심 괴물은 다시 한번 그것을이다.

yogsim goemul eun dasi hanbeon geugeos-eul ida.

Seems they will stop at nothing to gain only by lies and stealing their ways throughout life. 
그들은 거짓말과 생활 전반에 걸쳐 자신의 방법을 훔치는 만 얻을 것은 아무 것도 중단됩니다 보인다.

geudeul-eun geojismalgwa saenghwal jeonban-e geolchyeo jasin-ui bangbeob-eul humchineun man eod-eul geos-eun amu geosdo jungdandoebnida boinda .

Anyone following this drama story of Evil for Cash for using one's body to trap another.
함정 서로의 몸을 사용하는 현금에 대한 악의이 드라마의 이야기를 다음 사람.

hamjeong seolo ui mom eul sayonghaneun hyeongeum e daehan ag-ui i deulama ui iyagileul da-eum salam .

I wouldn't play nice if I was the guy the girl was trying to trap for my bank book. 
내 통장의 여자 트랩하려고했던 사람이라면 나는 좋은 플레이하지 않을 것입니다.

nae tongjang ui yeoja teulaeb halyeogohaessdeon salam ilamyeon naneun joh-eun peullei haji anh-eul geos-ibnida.

I haven't the nicest bit of anything that I could muster for the Greedy Monsters here. 

나는 여기에 욕심 괴물을 위해 소집 할 수있는 아무것도 아닌 멋진 비트가 있습니다.

naneun yeogie yogsim goemul eul wihae sojib hal su-issneun amugeosdo anin meosjin biteu ga issseubnida.

And so I will stop, thinking about this kind of mindless greed doesn't suit me well. 
그래서 나는 나를 잘 맞지 않는 어리석은 탐욕의이 종류에 대해 생각을 중지합니다.

geulaeseo naneun naleul jal maj-ji anhneun eoliseog-eun tam-yog uii jonglyu e daehae saeng-gag eul jungjihabnida.

Going on and on about how I really hate the fact that such a person is even called a Woman. 
난 정말 그런 사람도있는 여성이라고는 사실을 싫어 방법에 대해 계속적으로 간다.

nan jeongmal geuleon salam do issneun yeoseong ilago neun sasil-eul silh-eo bangbeob-e daehae gyesogjeog-eulo ganda .

My stomach turns at the thought she is of the same human race as me. 
내 위장은 그녀가 나 같은 인간 종족이다 생각에집니다.

nae wijang eun geunyeoga na gat-eun ingan jongjog ida saeng-gag-e jibnida.

Being human does not give anyone the right to be brainless.
인간 인 것은 사람에게 머리가 나쁜 할 수있는 권리를 부여하지 않습니다.

ingan in geos-eun salam ege meoliga nappeun hal su-issneun gwonlileul buyeohaji anhseubnida .

Nor the right to treat others in a ill like manner. 
도 오른쪽은 병이 같은 방식으로 다른 사람을 치료한다.

do oleunjjog eun byeong-i gat-eun bangsig-eulo daleun salam-eul chilyo handa.

So What!! That's what I have to say, right now. 
그래서 무엇! 그게 내가 지금 무슨 말을합니다.

geulaeseo mueos ! geuge naega jigeum museun mal-eul habnida.

It comes to mind so else and I'm confused by just how simple of a notion it is. 
너무 다른 마음에 와서 나는 그것이 인 개념의 얼마나 간단한에 의해 혼란 스러워요.

neomu daleun ma-eum-e waseo naneun geugeos-i in gaenyeom ui eolmana gandanhan e uihae honlan seuleowoyo .

News came out like time and time before. 
뉴스 전에 시간과 시간처럼 나왔다.

nyuseu jeon-e sigangwa sigan cheoleom nawassda.

Please remember, recall all the news that were none other than lies written in someone's favor.
, 다른 사람의 호의에 기록 된 거짓말 이외의 아무것도 없었다 모든 뉴스를 기억 기억하십시오.

, daleun salam-ui houi e gilog doen geojismal ioeui amugeosdo eobs-eossda modeun nyuseu leul gieog gieoghasibsio .

Trying to turn the public view of a person that has done so many wrong doings, around. 
주위에 너무 많은 잘못된 행동을했다 사람의 공개보기를 설정하려고합니다.

juwie neomu manh-eun jalmosdoen haengdong eulhaessda salam ui gong-gae bogileul seoljeong halyeogohabnida.

At first I will gladly share my feelings. 
처음에 나는 기꺼이 내 감정을 공유합니다.

cheoeum-e naneun gikkeoi nae gamjeong eul gong-yuhabnida.

What I thought first when I realized the story was about a person I look up too. 

내가 이야기를 깨달았을 때 내가 먼저 생각하는 것은 너무 찾아 사람에 있었다.

naega iyagileul kkaedal-ass-eul ttae naega meonjeo saeng-gag haneun geos-eun neomu chaj-a salam e iss-eossda .

And so many ways is a person that I found comfort in. 

그래서 여러 가지 방법이 내가 편안함을 발견 한 사람이다.

geulaeseo yeoleo gaji bangbeob-i naega pyeon-anham eul balgyeon han salam ida.

For that I respect this person and don't change my opinion based off lies. 
그 동안 나는이 사람을 존중하고 내 의견을 기반으로 거짓말을 변경하지 마십시오.

geu dong-an naneun i salam eul jonjunghago nae uigyeon-eul giban-eulo geojismal eul byeongyeonghaji masibsio.

I am a fan, and I can not and will not be made a fool of. 
나는 팬이다, 나는과의 바보를 만들 수 없습니다 수 없습니다.

naneun paen-ida , naneun gwa ui babo leul mandeul su eobs-seubnida su eobs-seubnida.

He is a man of honor that has a habit of being too giving and taking things to much to heart. 

그는 너무 것을주고 마음에 많은 물건을 복용하는 습관이 명예의 사람이다.

geuneun neomu geos-eul jugo ma-eum e manh-eun mulgeon eul bog-yong haneun seubgwan i myeong-yeui salam-ida.

Giving people a chance that never deserved one with him. 
사람들이 그와 함께 일을 가치가 결코 기회를주기.

salamdeul-i geuwa hamkke il eul gachiga gyeolko gihoeleul jugi .

Has hurt him dearly. 
사랑스러운 그를 다치게했다.

salangseuleoun geuleul dachige haessda .

As well the ones he loves and wholes so close to himself. 
뿐만 아니라 그가 사랑하는 사람과 자신에게 너무 가까이 wholes의.

ppunman anila geuga salanghaneun salam gwa jasin-ege neomu gakkai wholes-ui .

I'm saddened but know very well all the trash news that came out in English form is trash.

나는 슬프게하지만 쓰레기는 영어 형태로 나온 모든 쓰레기 소식입니다 아주 잘 알고 있어요.

naneun seulpeuge hajiman sseulegi neun yeong-eo hyeongtaelo naon modeun sseulegi sosig-ibnida aju jal algo iss-eoyo.

The first to report and yet without proof and lies after lies that have been proven. 
첫 번째는보고 아직 증거없이 입증 된 거짓말 후에 자리 잡고 있습니다.

cheos beonjjaeneun bogo ajig jeung-geo eobs-i ibjeung doen geojismal hue jali jabgo issseubnida.

The trash news forgets to write the truth of what the news really is.
휴지통 뉴스는 뉴스가 정말 무엇인지 진실을 작성 잊어.

hyujitong nyuseu neun nyuseu ga jeongmal mueos-inji jinsil-eul jagseong ij-eo .

I use to go on a few sites to get updates on news, but only after the first time there. 
나는하지만이 처음 이후, 뉴스 업데이트를 몇 사이트에 가서 사용합니다.

naneun hajiman i cheoeum ihu , nyuseu eobdeiteuleul myeoch saiteue gaseo sayonghabnida.

I noticed that there was no truth in the reports given as the news. 
나는 뉴스로 주어진 보고서에는 진실이 없었다 것으로 나타났습니다.

naneun nyuseu lo jueojin bogoseo eneun jinsil-i eobs-eossda geos-eulo natanassseubnida.

So I stopped going to those sites and started visiting twitter in place. 
그래서 해당 사이트로 이동 중지하고 대신에 트위터를 방문하기 시작했다.

geulaeseo haedang saiteu lo idong jungjihago daesin-e teuwiteo leul bangmun hagi sijaghaessda.

That and I wanted to make my voice heard.
즉, 나는 내 목소리 듣고 만들고 싶었다.

jeug, naneun nae mogsoli deudgo mandeulgo sip-eossda .

I wanted to share my words and likes and thoughts as well.
나뿐만 아니라 내 말과 좋아하는 생각을 공유하고 싶었다.

nappunman anila nae mal gwa joh-ahaneun saeng-gag-eul gong-yu hago sip-eossda.

All in all to gain my own voice if you well. 

모두 모두 잘하면 내 자신의 목소리를 얻을 수 있습니다.

modu modu jal hamyeon nae jasin-ui mogsolileul eod-eul su issseubnida.

There are ones out there if you look and you will find they wish to spread the truth.
거기가 보면 사람들은 거기에 그리고 당신은 그들이 진리를 전파하고자 찾을 수 있습니다.

geogi ga bomyeon salamdeul eun geogie geuligo dangsin-eun geudeul-i jinlileul jeonpa hagoja chaj-eul su issseubnida.

Of the whole Greedy Baby making Planning Gold Digger Game. 
계획 골드 파는 게임을 전체 욕심 아기의.

gyehoeg goldeu paneun geim eul jeonche yogsim agi ui .

That might have missed passing thru the ears of these trash news outlets.
즉, 이러한 쓰레기 뉴스 매체의 귀를 통해 전달 놓친 것.
jeug, ileohan sseulegi nyuseu maeche ui gwi leul tonghae jeondal nohchin geos
The truth is just that, the Truth. 
진실은, 단지 진실이있다.

jinsil-eun , danji jinsil i issda.

How dare ones feel they have the right to view it different. 
감히 것들은 서로 다른 볼 수있는 권한을 느낀다.

gamhi geosdeul-eun seolo daleun bol su-issneun gwonhan eul neukkinda.

All in hopes of what??? MONEY
모든 것의 희망 ??? 돈

modeun geos-ui huimang ??? don

This is my thoughts as of now, but my views on this man has never once been tanned by this trash money game. 
이것은 지금의 나의 생각이지만,이 남자가 내보기는 한번 쓰레기 머니 게임에서 빠져 있었 적이있다.

igeos-eun jigeum ui naui saeng-gag ijiman,i namjaga nae bogineun hanbeon sseulegi meoni geim-eseo ppajyeo iss-eoss jeog-iissda .

Heart Attack by:J.A. Burror

I'm In Green/ all else is information that I wanted to share. To know myself, but also to let anyone wanting to learn notice as well. This is no joke as some might say with their words, that you will have a heart attack. If you don't, if you leave or if they don't get what they want at that time. Life is not a game, Health shouldn't be a game. Life is life and should be cherished. I know corny but it is so true.

Today was just one of those days as it seems. I started my day with getting out of bed to fix my Dads morning coffee and pack his lunch. With this heat I made him a cup of just ice then he had his coffee to take. It's a Monday to Friday job so that's what I do for him. Not must because I know all he does for me. Pains in stomach and back with a headache that never takes a day off. Not very out of the normal of things going on here. But yet, yes another Doctors visit. I knew it was coming and it was only for test to be run for the surgery. The Surgery I'm talking about is my back surgery, to remove the lumps in my back. Near my lower part of my spine. To have the all clear-okay mark. 

Electrocardiogram (ECG or EKG)

What is it?
An electrocardiogram — abbreviated as EKG or ECG — is a test that measures the electrical activity of the heartbeat. With each beat, an electrical impulse (or “wave”) travels through the heart. This wave causes the muscle to squeeze and pump blood from the heart. A normal heartbeat on ECG will show the timing of the top and lower chambers. 

Why is it done?
An ECG gives two major kinds of information. First, by measuring time intervals on the ECG, a doctor can determine how long the electrical wave takes to pass through the heart. Finding out how long a wave takes to travel from one part of the heart to the next shows if the electrical activity is normal or slow, fast or irregular. Second, by measuring the amount of electrical activity passing through the heart muscle, a cardiologist may be able to find out if parts of the heart are too large or are overworked.

What is it a Heart Attack? Your heart muscle needs oxygen to survive. A heart attack occurs when the blood flow that brings oxygen to the heart muscle is severely reduced or cut off completely (View an animation of blood flow). This happens because coronary arteries that supply the heart muscle with blood flow can slowly become narrow from a buildup of fat, cholesterol and other substances that together are called plaque. This slow process is known as atherosclerosis . When a plaque in a heart artery breaks, a blood clot forms around the plaque. This blood clot can block the blood flow through the heart muscle. When the heart muscle is starved for oxygen and nutrients, it is called ischemia. When damage or death of part of the heart muscle occurs as a result of ischemia, it is called a heart attack or myocardial infarction (MI). About every 43 seconds, someone in the United States has a myocardial infarction (heart attack).

Heart attacks are caused by a blockage that stops blood flow to the heart. Cardiac arrest is caused when the heart's electrical system malfunctions.

            Different Medical Terms Used for a Heart Attack 

Myocardial infarction – The damaging or death of an area of the heart muscle (myocardium) resulting from a blocked blood supply to that area; medical term for a heart attack.

Coronary thrombosis – Formation of a clot in one of the arteries that conduct blood to the heart muscle. Also called coronary occlusion.

Coronary occlusion – An obstruction of a coronary artery that hinders blood flow to some part of the heart muscle. A cause of heart attack. 

 One very common type of chest pain is called angina, or angina pectoris. It's a recurring discomfort that usually lasts only a few minutes. Angina occurs when your heart muscle doesn't get the blood supply and oxygen that it needs. The difference between angina and a heart attack is that angina attacks don't permanently damage the heart muscle. Often angina occurs during exercise or emotional stress when your heart rate and blood pressure increase and your heart muscle needs more oxygen. * this is just one of different kinds of chest pain that one might have, not to go out and say when you are having one when it's really a broken heart that appears to feel as a heart attack in its self

 The heart muscle begins to heal soon after a heart attack and usually takes about eight weeks. Scar tissue may form in the damaged area, and that scar tissue does not contract or pump as well as healthy muscle tissue. That means that extent of damage to the heart muscle can impact how well the heart pumps blood throughout the body. The degree of loss of function depends on the size and location of the scar tissue. Most heart attack survivors have some degree of coronary artery disease (CAD) and will have to make important lifestyle changes and possibly take medication to prevent a future heart attack and lead a full, productive life. *Recovery is a likely out come, but don't shy away from the health warring your body just handed you

  This is just information that I needed to know about for my health. I am not a Doctor so please don't take me as knowing everything about it. I write and learn at the same time and I like it that way. I write from knowing first hand and seeing others do. I read a lot, but it has to be something that I feel the need to know moment or else I will leave it to gather dust. I truly hope this helps someone, when I write or post it's like I'm able to speak my mind and I get no judgemental 'you shouldn't think that way'.

Is my heart permanently damaged?

When a heart attack occurs, the heart muscle that has lost blood supply begins to suffer injury. The amount of damage to the heart muscle depends on the size of the area supplied by the blocked artery and the time between injury and treatment. Damage to the heart muscle from a heart attack heals by forming scar tissue. It usually takes several weeks for your heart muscle to heal. The length of time depends on the extent of your injury and your own rate of healing. The heart is a very tough organ. Even though a part of it may have been severely injured, the rest keeps working. But because your heart has been damaged, it may be weaker and can't pump as much blood as usual. However, with proper treatment after a heart attack and lifestyle changes, further damage can be limited or prevented.

Why didn't I have any warning?

The process of Atherosclerosis has no symptoms. One reason there may be no warning signs is that sometimes when a coronary artery becomes narrowed, other nearby vessels that also bring blood to the heart sometimes expand to help compensate. The network of expanded vessels is called collateral circulation and helps protect some people from heart attacks by getting needed blood to the heart. Collateral circulation can also develop after a heart attack to help the heart muscle recover.

Stress
Individual response to stress may be a contributing factor. Some scientists have noted a relationship between coronary heart disease risk and stress in a person's life, their health behaviors and socioeconomic status. These factors may affect established risk factors. For example, people under stress may overeat, start smoking or smoke more than they otherwise would.

Alcohol
Drinking too much alcohol can raise blood pressure, increase risk of cardiomyopathy and stroke, cancer and other diseases. It can contribute to high triglycerides, and produce irregular heartbeats. Excessive alcohol consumption contributes to obesity, alcoholism, suicide and accidents. However, there is a cardioprotective effect of moderate alcohol consumption. If you drink, limit your alcohol consumption to no more than two drinks per day for men and no more than one drink per day for women. The National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism defines one drink as 1-1/2 fluid ounces (fl oz) of 80-proof spirits (such as bourbon, Scotch, vodka, gin, etc.), 5 fl oz of wine or 12 fl oz of regular beer. It's not recommended that nondrinkers start using alcohol or that drinkers increase the amount they drink.

Diet and Nutrition
A healthy diet is one of the best weapons you have to fight cardiovascular disease. The food you eat (and the amount) can affect other controllable risk factors: cholesterol, blood pressure, diabetes and overweight. Choose nutrient-rich foods — which have vitamins, minerals, fiber and other nutrients but are lower in calories — over nutrient-poor foods. Choose a diet that emphasizes intake of vegetables, fruits, and whole grains; includes low-fat dairy products, poultry, fish, legumes, nontropical vegetable oils, and nuts; and limits intake of sweets, sugar-sweetened beverages, and red meats. And to maintain a healthy weight, coordinate your diet with your physical activity level so you're using up as many calories as you take in.

*You Are What You Eat/ You become healthy from the foods you take in. That's what I want to believe, but I am very healthy on the mark. I even choose to leave the salt out when I can, so take the salad with just lemon and pepper for dressing. I eat sweets but I make my own most of the time and they are what I put into them. I hate cooking with real sugar and different oils. Because of what is can do to the inside of the body and my body reacts as if I hit it with a ton of brinks.

                                 [I fall out of most of the risk factors I found here]

But I had the EKG today and it left me in tears. My doctor started asking about chest pain, when and where also how I get it. She felt my feet, pressing on them. Listening to my heartbeat and asking about my sleeping. If I'm out of breath a lot, and if I get tired often. Parts of my back I haven't been able to fully feel for years and I guess that was another red flag to my Doctor. I'm being sent to a Heart Doctor within this next month. And to be perfectly clear about my feelings here, I'm freaking out. Heart Problems, I've heard this before. I had Weight Loss Surgery in Sept. 09', and ever scene I've had so many tests that it's worrisome. To list everything is a chore that leaves my heart chipping away bit by bit. The EKG wasn't normal at all, the Doctor told me it looks like a Heart Attack. I wanted to look it up because How, Couldn't I have known?

Symptoms of heart attack

If you are concerned that you may be experiencing a heart attack, call 9-1-1. Minutes matter! Learn the warning signs to familiarize yourself in case of an emergency.

Symptoms of heart disease which may lead to a heart attack

You may be experiencing cardiovascular problems if you notice that ordinary physical activity causes you to experience the following symptoms:

• Undue fatigue
• Palpitations --- the sensation that your heart is skipping a beat or beating too rapidly
• Dyspnea --- difficult or labored breathing
• Chest pain --- chest pain or discomfort from increased activity
  • Angina pectoris also called stable angina or chronic stable angina
  • Unstable angina

A healthcare provider can diagnose a heart attack based on several assessment findings. These include:

• the patient's complete medical history.
• a physical examination.
• an electrocardiogram (ECG or EKG) to discover any abnormalities caused by damage to the heart. An ECG is a medical device that makes a graphical record of the heart's electrical activity.
• blood testing to detect abnormal levels of certain enzymes in the bloodstream.

Blood tests confirm (or refute) suspicions raised in the early stages of evaluation that may occur in an emergency room, intensive care unit or urgent care setting. These tests are sometimes called heart damage markers or cardiac enzymes.
http://www.heart.org/HEARTORG/

                                            Heart Attack

I was at the ER just last month and had a EKG done that showed nothing wrong. But now they tell me different it's a back in-forth game I wish not to play. Really can someone just out of the blue have a Heart Attack and be unaware. The answer is sadly but YES, it happens and it's not good. To have something meager happen and your body gives you no warring signs. Can leave you with more issues to follow. But not always, I'm just going off what I've read and seen.  

Heart Attack Signs in Women

1. Uncomfortable pressure, squeezing, fullness or pain in the center of your chest. It lasts more than a few minutes, or goes away and comes back.
2. Pain or discomfort in one or both arms, the back, neck, jaw or stomach.
3. Shortness of breath with or without chest discomfort.
4. Other signs such as breaking out in a cold sweat, nausea or lightheadedness.
5. As with men, women’s most common heart attack symptom is chest pain or discomfort. But women are somewhat more likely than men to experience some of the other common symptoms, particularly shortness of breath, nausea/vomiting and back or jaw pain.

If you have any of these signs, call 9-1-1 and get to a hospital right away.

Fathers Day by:J.A. Burror

Yesterday was Fathers Day and I hope all had a great time with their children. I prayed for the ones that might not be able to see their loved ones on such a day. But do hope the message of love was sent over to them. This isn't a normal thing for me, I grew up not believing you should be thankful of such things. But I always was in my heart and that is why I kept apart of my heart hidden. As a youngster that didn't want to rock the boat and seem as if I could go with the flow. Even when my heart was telling me different. I was left a-mute to letting others see me. Knowing very well beliefs are different from each person. Then we are all each are selves and given the right by birth to think.

I have family that views this day as nothing more then just a day. then others see it as something special and I see it the same. For a Father to be called a real Father is something not to shy away from. In this world we have so many unwilling to step up to be a Father. The ones that chose and want to take on that roll are great in my book. Yes having it pushed on you, finding out out of the blue that you are apart of anthers life. Is so scary, this I know from my own history. But the moment that child moves, born, and you get to hold them. It makes the fear start up in a different way.
Will you be good enough to raise them well? 
                                Are you ready to take on that roll?
                                               Will you be able to keep them safe and healthy?

All understandable questions to ask ones self. I've read a few books on being a parent and everyone has their own rules they govern by. I can't say anything about raising a child well because I am not rising a child myself. But it's a secret hope of mine is to share rising a child with someone I love.


As always I thank you all for the time!

Another Surgery Coming by:J.A. Burror

I am not one that believes that my feelings are alone. That I'm the only one that can feel and that does. Pain, Scared it's hard to pinpoint right on the cause. Sometimes you feel as if you need a swift kick in the butt. To have you come out of it. I mean this is something I've had for years and I hate it. Blood work, testing, more testing. And then ER visits that last days and some only to be sent home with orders and more medication. I Hate Medication, I get the need of such pills but really I hate it. It's as I turn into a scared child seeing the Doctor for the first time and it's after hearing all the nightmares about them.

My view point comes from my past that I have had. Why aren't there more Doctors in the ER that have bedside manners, I wonder about the cause. Could be very well that they see so much that their views on human compassion are tainted. I have not a clue as to what troubles theirs minds nor have I once asked. I was yelled at for going to the ER 'because I wasn't dying'. WOW what a Doctor I found. But the paperwork in black in white was clear I needed to see my Doctor ASAP for testing and surgery.

Doctors I get you are smart, worked hard to get where you are, but shouldn't you hear the person out of if they're in pain? At lest that's what I would think of a Doctor to be while I was younger, now I think time has changed my views. In and out of the ER as fast as you can, so they can help as many as they can in a timely way.

I'm thankful for the ones that stand out in the crowd. The ones that seem to care about your health and wanting to give of their time only as needed. But still they don't question your pain, doubt that you real can feel. Even some nurses can do the same, make a ER visit seem as less then a scary deal.


I had some test ran and Surgery is coming. This time it's my lower back, on both sides of my spine I have bumps. I can't lay on my back so they need to be out, the pain I dealt with for years. But they are growing and there's a new one that popped up in only 4 months of my last x-ray. I was told I would be laying on my stomach for sometime after. I first saw my Doctor doing my Surgery a few days ago, really it was Monday the 6th. I got a call with the date to be next week. I can't understand why so fast, what's the rush? I know I'm in pain but that never stopped the Doctors before and my healthcare from waiting. It just plays with your mind when normally something takes months, years for them to okay. Now it's pushed threw and I have no time to mentally think about it. The out come isn't that great with the rise, the bumps are very close to my spine so I was brought up the thoughts of what might go wrong.

Pain will come after surgery that's a given. You will be tired and need to rest the body, another given. Not being able to walk when before you could. Isn't part of the plan, but with each and every surgery done there are risk we take.

I've been in a wheelchair and still today I use a cane. So every time I fall, I meltdown and relive the times I couldn't stand on my own. Unable to walk I never realized what a gift that was in this world. Step by step and the baby ones to begin with. Like everything starts with baby steps of the body, of the brain. 

I had to postpone the date to next month, still have a lot of testing in the next few weeks. And with time off work and wanting to know the results of other test done before hand. I thought it was the right road to take on for now.

I haven't been talking much on the net, or face to face to my family. So don't feel wronged if I didn't come on here like at times before. My mind wouldn't leave me be and at lest I still have one I guess it's a good point to think of out of all this thinking I've been doing.

Helping my family with moving the front door and adding a window, building a deck. I haven't been a slacker these past weeks. I'm coming to terms with just because you try (like me trying to be on here daily or more then once a week) and thanes you can't help come up and you are left with being stuck in a busy circle.