To put it bluntly, today was a bad day. Not my worst day I have ever had by far, but nevertheless a bad day. I wish I could go back, time rewind so I'm cozy in bed. Completely oblivious to what was going to happen today. I had a Doctors appointment like always. Every week it seems I have something. It is on going of the problem findings. But I that nothing big about this one, it was just my regular Doctor I go to. Sorry, I need to back up a bit and tell you why I needed to call him for this visit.
My legs, feet have been swelling up. So bad that I can't wear my normal size 6 jeans. Shoes don't fit, so I'm in strap on ones. All this is happening and I'm taking baby steps. Really a baby first learning to walk would be faster then I am at the moment.
Before you think it, No I Didn't Gain Weight. Although the scale states a higher number then before, But I'm happy I have one of the scales that tell. You have to put your age, height and then step on. Telling you your Body Mass Index (BMI), Water %, Body %. So I know when my water is high. I have had swelling before and it's all the same, I end up unable to move.
Doctor came in and put on his glove. Yea just that thought when I was a kid gave me the creeps. Like really why a glove, then they have to add the mask? Anyway back to the point. Pressing on my feet and up my legs. Leaving marks, should say imprints into my skin. That in its self is a warning sign. That your body is Retaining Weight, I already knew I was. Not my first time in this rodeo show. So before I took Water Pills, right. Seems like the answer, No not even close. I was so off base on this one. I almost broke into tears. Heart Problems, That's what they're are testing me for now. I can't even write it without saying it out loud, without tears forming ready to fall at anytime. Kidney Failure, That's another one. Because I drink so much and the fact of my past as a over weight child for so long, he wanted Diabetics on the testing list.
Right now I'm like this:
Putting the Ice Cream in the Pantry
Putting the Soda Cans in the Freezer
Putting the Bag of meat with my Can Goods
Putting the Cat Food in the Oven
Putting the Veggies in the trash because I mistook them for trash bags
Getting hungry and making my self a sandwich:
Coby Jack Cheese, garlic sauce with normal Ranch Dressing.
Grilled Chicken pieces and sliced red onions, more Cheese but White this time,
open face loaf of French Bread the kind they just baked in the store and you smell it so you throw it in your cart on a whim
on a cookie sheet and oven for about 10 minutes then you close the loaf and eat it
I CAN'T HAVE ANYTHING ON THIS SANDWICH, but the Garlic
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
It's like I am trying to Tease Myself ;(
Have to wait for these tests, but it's normal sometimes you get that call that says: 'We made an appointment for the Doctor to disguise the findings of your test.' When you can't go in because it's to far and you just have noway of getting there on that day. Most times I have found they won't tell you anything by phone. It's a law put in place to help protect the information of the patient they are calling. Meanwhile they can call you and you have to give your personal information by phone to them and a lot of times I get no name.
Really at first when I was always being tested for something. Blood drown all the time, it made this scary cat of needle's. Not feel the point rip into my skin. To many IV's and ER visits will do that to a person.
If I sound like I'm downing Doctors Please understand I have a lot of respect for Doctors. I'm not badmouthing anyone that hasn't done something to me or to ones I care for. I could never been the first to throw a punch but make no mistake I do fight back when it is called for. I just view some that use fighting first in a different way. It's like I can't rack my brain around it. But then again you have to walk a mile in another mans shoes to truly understand them. But how can we? We all are made beautifully different inside and outside. WOW I say that but I plan to myself change my outer. To become more pleasing to my own self. Something I have wanted and didn't realize Doctors could do what I would want to have done to me. But they do, it just has been taking me time to find out where to go and how to get there. First thing with all cosmetic surgery's you have to know your heath before hand. I'm still working on understanding mine. Tell then I will not post pictures of what I look like.
The main reason why my Doctor didn't want to give me a water pill is because he said I might have a STROKE do to it. Water Pills lower your blood presser, and mine is low. I didn't know this, but signs were pointing in different outcomes for him. So I was all ears so to speak. I'm on heave medication as it is from a Neurologists. Even if you stop a medication, your body still have the effects of that medication in you. And if you try something that would go against it then even tho you are not on it. Your body hasn't processed the full memo. That all being said I can chalk this down as a Bad Day.
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